Photo contests .

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How are you? I hope you all had an amazing Christmas! I know i'm late but i wish you MERRY CHRISTMAS in any case :) I think i will write a post showing you some presents my friends and family gave me this year, so maybe i can give you some ideas for future gifts (Christmas and bday ones).

But today what i want to do is to show you two pictures I made to take part and ofc try to win two different photo contests.

● The first contest i took part was organized by Assicity, an association composed by young people from my city who try to create events such as christmas markets in the main square, parties during the whole year, Halloween included, or summer games. Everyone likes these events because my city is small, medieval and mainly famous because of St.Francis, churches and other religious things. To keep the tourism alive no one really thinks about the young people who lives in here, there are no special occasions for us to meet and party.

In any case, this association, to finance other events, this year decided to print a calendar that was going to have 12 different pictures, one for each month. To find original photos they decided to organize this contest, where the main theme was 'Red'.

This is the picture i sent to take part in the competition.

Made with Canon1000D, edited by a friend of mine with a program i don't know
but that is better than mine for sure ahah

The pictures were not judged by photographers or by the members of the association but they were uploaded on Facebook on Assicity's page (without the names of the authors) and they were voted by all the people who were fan of the profile. Mine was one of the first 12, so it was selected to represent November on the calendar that are available since Friday 27th till Sunday 29th.

The pictures i sent had worse colors than the ones i posted up there but was really similar; i decided to upload here the one that a friend of mine edited to make it more lightfull, and i find it really nice in this way.

● The second contest i took part was organized by my school. On the last day before christmas holiday, the 21st of December, this contest was over and the people who won the writing contest (with poetries and stuff), the drawing contest and the photography one, received a little award that was a small present (a frame i guess).

I unluckily didn't win, but i'll show you below the pictures i did for the theme ''Violence against women''

Canon 1000D

To make this picture as i was creating it in my mind, i organized my own photo set at home and, as model, i chose my cousin Lorenza (you can find her on Twitter). If you are wondering... the hand is my brother's ahah just saying !

To be completely honest with you guys, i didnt really like these two pictures. I'm sure i've done better ones, also for other contests. I personally like street photography, i like to capture the moment and the geometrical shapes around me. When it came to build my own pictures, i really didnt know what to expect, i mean both the pictures are not natural and i was not sure if send them or not. I did and i'm glad i did in any case (either i win or lose) ahah

Write what you think about the pictures in the comment below, i'll be glad to hear your opinion of them :) have a nice day everyone!

A quote from Buddha .

HeyHey! 

How are you guys doing ? I'm doing fine at the moment, just praying not to have an oral test on these final days of school ! On the 23rd morning I will officially be in holiday :D I love Christmas time and this year I have been really looking forward to it! It's even the first time I properly decorate my bedroom for this time of the year; I bought xmas lights, I got a christmassy blanket and a little Christmas tree in wood as well (it is so cute, you can put on it the little balls in wood you find in the box).

I don't have much to write about since the fact that yesterday I had a play at the theatre, the one I have been working for since September, so as you can imagine I've been at the Theatre more or less the whole week for several hours. In any case, the play turned out amazingly and to be honest, the time was flying for me when I was standing on the stage, performing my character (if this is a good expression to use). Oh if I ever write something wrong (expressions, grammar mistakes or anything else), let me notice it in the comment below, I'll appreciate that because I'm here to learn. 

I think I will have time to take pictures of what I bought this period and post some of them below, with the xmas present I will get (because I think I've been a good girl this year :D), and I also have in mind a photography experiment to do, we'll see if I can make it.

On the next post I'll publish two pictures I did for two different contests I'll describe properly :) 

For now, I'll only leave you this quote I wrote on my moleskine, hope you like it ! Wish you best last days of school, if this is an unusual wish..well I'm original ! Ahah 

Made with iPhone 4S 

Random chat .

HeyHey!  

How are you? One week ago I wrote a post about my favourites of the month and it seems like you didn't like it that much, am I right? Well, at least, that's what  Blogger says showing the visualisations of the different posts I wrote. I think I'll try to reduce this kind of topic (like girly one), they are more for "fashion blogger" (that I am not and I don't want to be). I will basically stop because I feel like it's not what I started to write about. I don't want/can/should become a fashion blogger or something like that, not my style ahah In any case, this is just a quick talk/update. 

I almost recover completely from the bronchitis. This week I went back at school was absolutely terrible; all the oral and written tests I missed those 5 days I spent at home sick, I had to remake during this week, although I already had other tests. This led me to cry a lot, to swear against everything, to be particularly mad ad anyone for stupid reasons; In few words, I was hysterical (as my brother kindly defined me). BUT all this negativity/hate I had against school...made me appreciate/enjoy even more all those things I do more than study, such as the two acting lessons I'm taking (one of them is almost over, on the 17th we'll have the play we've worked on), scout, gymnastic (that right now is basically coming back to school walking as much as I can) etc. I even started paying more attention on the things I watch and hear. 

I had a small time on Friday afternoon to shopping with mum and I bought a couple of items I've already wear ahah I don't know what about you but I really like to start wearing things when they are new! I can't wait to see how I style them and stuff. 

This weekend I haven't done much. Let's start saying that my weekend starts on Saturday afternoon (because in the morning I have school). I was out with friends during the afternoon and than out again in the evening for a 20 bday aperitif/dinner (this was so cool).

Oh I had the check at the dietitian...it strangely went well. When I told her I started to eat again in a nervous way when I study, she really seemed a bit bothered, and for this reason when it came out I lost 1.3 kg (basically doing nothing special)  she was as surprised as I was!

Okay this blog post is turning into a single chatter about my life and a bounce of events you don't even care about ahah sorry! To make this post a bit more interesting I'll post a picture of how I started decorating my bedroom for Christmas 

The quality is not the best one, this red looks way brighter than the original (made with iPhone)

For the first time I bought these cute little lights for my bedroom. I saw them in many YouTube videos and i thought  they were so cute I couldn't wait to buy them at the Chinese shop, where I was surely going to find them for few euros (100 lights, 4€). Lots of people have them in blue and I personally searched for white/blue lights but then when I didn't find them I realised that maybe this warm yellow light was going to be more adapt to my bedroom, that has cream walls and red items everywhere. 

The deck I got from Butlers is so cute and you can turn it and there's the same print on the other side but in blue, white and maybe green (can't properly remember right now tbh ahah)

Have a nice week everyone :) 

Remember that Life is a game we play !

November favourites .

HeyHey!

How are you people doing? I hope everything's fine. I'm sick at the moment, I have bronchitis; you basically cough constantly, especially when you lie down. The medicines i'm taking make me tired but at the same time seems like i don't have much appetite anymore, that is great for my diet ahah! For this reason I spent a couple of days home where i didn't have much to do, apart from  reading and playing CandyCrush (really addicting as game btw), so at one point i came out with this lists of things i really liked this month. I hope you'll like them as well.

Make up products

♥ I love mat  lipstick to death! I can go around with no eyeliner, foundation, blusher...but with no mascara and lipstick there's no point for me to wear make up. Well i'm also that kind of person that associate make up with a special day (usually saturday) so i rarely have make up on during the week, like at school etc. In any case, back to the main topic, this month i really liked these two mat lipstick i bought at the local fair where i could buy them for a lower price, but i'm sure you can still find them everywhere.

Deborah - Atomic Red MAT n° 03

Rimmel London - Kate Moss n° 107

This is how they look on my skin. The one from Kate Moss it's darker than what it seems here;it is a burgundy color althought you can't properly see from the picture. 

♥ Always from the make up world, this month i really liked this eyelash curler. It is not from any brand, i bought it at the chinese shop. If i have to be honest i love this object because i never really had one before so i basically like what it does ahah.

Jewelery items 

♥ I wore these two rings a lot because i like to match  gold accessories with black dresses

I bought this one in Germany in a small Supermarket (i guess it was called ''Muller''). It was pretty cheap (2,30€) 

and i had many compliments on it.

This ring has an average shape i always wanted to get but that i've been afraid to use because it could look too serious. The indian stall at the local fair had this amazing burgundy color that i adored. It was 4€.

♥ I got this set of bracelets from Primark. As i said, i like to match gold with black and these were perfect for me. They were only 1€. The first one on the top is my mum's one and she got it many years ago, so you won't be able to find it in the same package. 

Clothing items 

♥ I waited to wear this dress so long, i got it at Primark for 13€ this summer, and i finally  had the occasion to use it for an 18bday party. The sleeves are a bit more transparent than the rest of the dress. 

(Sorry for the mess in the background, my bedroom was obviously not in order) If you watch this picture from a mobile phone, you'll see me way thinner!

♥ I got this pair of slippers at the local fair. If they look enourmous for you...well they are actually ahah. I have a 39 (IT number) and these are from 40 till 42. But i liked them so much and i decided to pick them in any case. 

♥ I enjoyed wearing my ''big dog'' as well. Now, what i call the ''big dog'' it's one of those big pijama/costume they sell at Primark. I got one that looks like a dog and it was magnificent to start winter with it. Unluckily when i wanted to take a picture of it to post it here i could not find it and i discovered my mum took it to wash, i was also not able to find a picture on the internet. My apologies.

Random random

♥ I have many cases for my iPhone 4S but this one i've been using a lot in November. It's completely made in silicone, also the part in the front and if you like it as well you can buy it here.

♥ I'm really addicted to tea and when i drink it i like to take my time at the table, drinking it from my beatles vintage cup. But lately i need to drink it while i'm busy doing other things. So once it's ready, i like to put my hot tea inside this adorable thermos i got at Primark. The print reminds me of winter time. 

♥ Two days ago i finally got my first tripod. I bought it for a really low price on amazon, compared to the ones you find at the MediaWord. I really racommend this one for those that, as me, would like their first tripod ever. You can find all the information you need here 

       

♥ On the first picture you can see how much i cut my hair. They used to be really long because i did not cut them for one year. At the same time i did the ombrè on them, so they were even more devastated. I decided to cut them and than to re-do the ombrè. This time it happend that it turned out a bit too blond for my natural colour, and during the first days (second picture) i looked like Barbie. Actually i really like them, i'm getting used to this new color.

I wrote a lot about this month, i hope the next one i'll be able to summarize a bit more. I changed a couple of songs in the soundtrack, i hope you like them and if you have a couple of songs's titles you think could match with my blog or that you simply like, write them in the comment below. 

Have a nice December :)

Just for Bloglovin .

HeyHey!

Yes, i do know this is the second blog post i write today, but i tried to claim my blog on Bloglovin and it says i should paste on one of my blogpost this link (that i'll paste below) so, this post has not a real purpose ahah

<a href="http://www.bloglovin.com/blog/11105563/?claim=6dzmt279epa">Follow my blog with Bloglovin</a>

Done! :) Now it should work...it should! 

My F***** DIET !

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So, as i wrote several time, i can't consider myself a thin person, not at all. Althought people say i'm not, i consider myself chubby!

Yes, that's the percet adjective. Althought my size is not that small, i like the fact that, since the fact i've been a gymnast for 9 years, i'm quite tonic (my butt stays up bitches! ahah)

But this is not the point. As i said in my introduction/blog post titled ''What to do with my blog'' i should use this internet page to wreak me. Let's do this!

This summer, at the beginning of June i decided to start a diet. I went to this dietician that i really liked and that gave me a diet where i really could EAT. 

Unlikely, the first time i've been on a diet (i guess 3 or 4 years ago), i lost almost 4kgs on the first month that is not healthy but at the time made me really happy, but the problem with that diet was that i ate almost everyday rice, spelt, chicken, some vegetables and some fruits (i also had fish but i don't like it at all so i just replaced it with chicken). The dietitian removed all the carbohydrates i was eating. That gave me result but it couldn't last for so long. I was hungry for the biggest part of the daytime.

When i started this new diet i had trubles to respect the doses of food that woman gave me for every meal because it was too much. We had as purpose to teach me how to eat in an healthy way. As you probably know (if you don't go check out the last blog post about some random facts about me!) i don't eat that bad because i don't like cream, whipped cream, gums, sparkling drinks etc. Living in Italy also leads me not to eat with too much mayo, or ketchup (oh, also this one i don't really like), not so many sweets, like really fat ones that i see in pictures from american channels. I get easily fatter because of pizza and pasta, and who wouldn't when you get the chance to eat them everyday? This is not pizza case, i eat it once a week, and not every week. But pasta, that's my average lunch because is easy to cook and it's ready after few minutes.

So basically, i started with this diet in a really good way. Althought i've been traveling a lot this summer, and there were many bday parties i've been to...I lost weight. I did, 5 kgs in 3 months that is an healthy way to lose weight and learn how to eat at the same time. I went out for a walk of 1h30 every day, and also when i went travelling i used to walk a lot.

(Picture found on the internet)

BUT when school started I stopped losing weight. At the beginning i thought that it was because i was actually facing that moment when you realize that the fat you have on your body are kgs that stayed there for several months so they took longer to get away from your body. After another months where i kept thinking this i was not loosing weight again. In that moment I realize i was not having free time to walk and exercise anymore. Since September i've started the school year again, and i also started two different acting classes with a group at school and another one, composed by older people. What i was missing was also the time i needed to prepare my big healthy salads and the attention i had for the doses, of both foods and condiments. 

So, on the 27th of September i went to the dietician for the average control, that always gave me positive responses. It was not the same for that time. I basically didn't really know what to do when she told me i lost no one kgs. I was eating less than the average, I was trying to work out more often. I just started crying when i went out. Since that day i didn't really focused on the diet that more, i felt like i was doing something that was not fitting for me, like i'm never going to be as thin as i want to be, i'll never have my friends size. 

The biggest mistake was to let the self-pity to take over me. 

And now here i am, after two tremendous weeks at school, with thousands of tests and assignments to do, two weeks in which i've been eating constanlty for the so call ''emotional eating'' (or at least thats how google stranslated what we call ''nervous eating''), i'll have the control at the dietitian's next week, on Friday and i'm 100% sure i gaigned at least 1kg this week. 

I honestly don't know if i should keep spending money on something that i'm believing everyday less but that could remind me constanlty what was the goal i wanted to reach at the beginning  OR to take a couple of months to think if i want to do this seriously, taking a break from the diet ofc, but this is not the best solution considering that christmas is over and it will be so hard to control myself with all those sweets etc.

What would you suggest me? Have you ever been in this situation or on diet in general? Let me know in the comment below. I aplogize for grammar/typing mistakes, it's just that my hands are so cold right now!

I now have Bloglovin and i'm trying to claim my blog's link there, so you could get notification everytime i write somethign new, if you enjoy my blog ofc :)

I wish you a good weekend, althought yours started on Friday, differently from mine ahah

25 +1 facts about me .

HeyHey! 

I'm back! I mean, back here, not that i've been anywhere lately, just school house school house and school again. Pretty boring? It's just the fact that on Wednesday there will be a meeting between teachers and parents to look at marks, talk about attitude and other things. So all my teachers just pretend to put as many oral and written testes as they can in two weeks, letting us dying on our books!

Basically this post i'm making today is to introduce other sides of me that ofc you can't see/know through this internet page. So here they are, 26 facts about me!

► I can't sing without my headphones. If i hear my voice, or i know someone could hear me while i'm singing alone in my bedroo...i'll quite immediately! 

► I've never skipped/been late on purpose at school until when i turned 18. In this way i could sign my own autorization without falsifying my parents' signatures. I've done like this because I sucked at copying signatures. 

► When it comes to left and right it always takes me a couple of secs to realize which one is left or right. For the same reason i have problem memorizing the translation of them in the other languages i study. It's not a problem ot anything else, it just doesn't come immediately.

► I'm a talkative person. Sometimes while i'm talking i forget what i'm saying. I starts saying things like ''so...that's why...i mean...don't really know how to say...ehm...yeah...'' and after repeting them a couple of them i confess i forget what i was saying.

► I talk so much my friends have the bad habit to stop listening to me while i'm talking because they're tired to hear me.

► I've been in a distance relationship with a dutch guy of my age for two years, and i regret no one of the moments i spent with him. 

► The 'RS' at the end of the nickname i use (more or less) for every social network/websites, stands for Ringo Starr. I was and i still am pretty obsessed with the Fab4...mostly known as The Beatles. My   favourite one as you can see was the drummer.

► The first cat i got was a grey pussy called Zoe. She arrived at christmas and we thought she was a 'she'. But when it arrived the moment to sterilize my cat, well the vetinarian ended up castrating my animal. And that's how we discovered my cat was a 'he' and not 'she'. Now he's called Zorba.

► I had lots of gold fishes we were used to buy at the local fair we have in my city on the 5th of October. All of them were dying after one year. They started living four years more just when we decided to change name.

► Althought i'm Italian (and Italy is famous for good food) I'm really bad at cooking. My pasta sucks, i can't cook anything, i'm terrible !

► I like order, but my bedroom it's a mess.

► I'm 1.70m (it should be 67 inches...more or less) and i'm not thin. I consider myself quite chubby, and that's why i've done several diets. I'm currently in one, and i lost 5 kgs !

► I used to HATE shopping. I like it now, but not that much, still have some problem when it comes to spend money (i'm a bit stingy but i'm solving this out ahah)

► My favourite food is ice cream. I could eat ice cream everyday at every time.

► Behind my bedroom's door there are lots of papers with quotes and sentences from songs and books that i like. 

► I hate fish, just with the smell of it i have nausea. I also do not like cream and whipped cream, and this is why i rarely eat cakes at bday parties, and i don't drink sparkling stuff (no coca cola, sprite etc.). I lately started drinking beer when i was in Germany and i liked it, althought i can't drink a whole can/bottle of it.

► I do not eat gum. When people discover this when they know me a bit better, they look at me like if i'm an alien ahah

► My biggest dream is to travel the whole world.

► My foot size it's 39 (IT) and, as my size, it's bigger than my friends one. For this reason it annoyes me to give clothes to anyone, i'm not used to it.

► My favourite make up product is lipstick 

► I keep every airplanes tickets and bday cards i have. 

► Althought i'm 18, i'm still afraid of darkness. I've always had this fear. It's not darkness itself, just the fact that i can't see/know what's in it.

► I'm a scout (not the stereotype of boy scout we see in movies; i've never sold biscuits and stuff). Here they're pretty cool tbh.

► I'd like to have my own photography blog but i have no clue of how to make it

► I have several tastes of incesce. There's always a different parfume in my bedroom.

► I have at least one cup of tea everyday, sometimes even two.

Hope you discovered something interesting about me and that you enjoyed reading. And now that i've told you some personal stuff it's time to introduce my face to you!

So face, this is my blog. Blog, this is my face, hope you two will see eachother again soon, 

you know, just to avoid shyness ;)

My future .

HeyHey! 

As you may know if you read my introduction, i'm on my final year of high school here in Italy and on June, if everything goes for the best i'll have the final exam. If i'll pass it...i'll finally be out of high school..YAY! Differently from my english peers i won't have a gap year. Hold on, i lied..my english peers are already in Uni...dammit (My school lasts longer, don't worry i didn't have to repeat the year or anything else :P). In any case, i won't have any break between high school and Uni. I'll be over (hopefully) high school at the beginning of July and Uni starts in October. 

The biggest part of my classmates have no clue of what they want to do after school, what they want to become when they'll be adults. I personaly have a clear idea.

There were several situations/people who made me realize i wanted to become an italian teacher abroad, in particular in Germany, since the fact i love the language and the life over there, but also the Netherlands and England could be a good places...we'll see what life will give me.

When i had the exchange with the Netherlands on my 2nd year of high school, the teachers who was organizing the trip on the dutch side was a german woman who teached german (ofc) in Holland. That was amazing for me. A second exchange we had was with the far Australia (amazing experience btw) and when i realized that the girls our partners were studying italian at school i kinda understood that my language is not that bad for the other people in the world. With those girls we went in Perugia (a city here in italy, not so far from my small city) to take a short lessons at the Uni for foreign people who were trying to learn italian. That blow my mind ahah I know, it doesn't seem anything special but cmon when i say '' I would like to become an italian teacher abroad'' i feel so proud of myself!

Actually i'm still searching for the perfect Uni where to go. I got three options to reach my point

- Move to Germany > find a work > start talking a better german > get the lever C1 > get into Uni

- Move to Germany > find a Uni for foreing person > get into Uni

- Stay in Italy > get into Uni for foreign people in Perugia taking lessons to teach italian abroad for 3 years < forget German > move to Germany > get the level C1 > live there 

the last one is the easiest to study but the hardest to make it in germany, but i could make it anywhere else maybe...who knows. In any case, for now this is my plan. Last weekend i've been with my mum who went there for work in a lovely town in Germany called Wertheim. First of all let me tell you... i made amazing pictures. I had the opportunity to go around the village alone for the whole day, just me and my camera. And it was...fantastic! Perfect! But the main reason i went there was that i could use that short trip to collect as many information as i could for the Uni. I got something more than what i used to know before ofc and other information i will get in emails. 

Was nice to share with you this project of mine. I do know is not the easiest things to do and that i'm still young and bla bla bla but hey, LIFE IS A GAME WE PLAY and my parents support me in this so i'm really determinated at the moment.

What do you want to do with your life guys? let me know in the comment below! And if you have any advices for me...go on than! :)

I really like this picture i took in  a Café in Amsterdam last Summer after the Gay Pride Canal Parade. I've always liked it, it gives me the idea i have of Vintage, don't know why, maybe just because of the vinyl. Just wanted to share it :)
 you can find it on my Flickr page  http://www.flickr.com/photos/federicaz/

What to do with this blog .

Heyhey !

 Today i reached 105 visualisations (yeeee) of this internet page...and this is pretty awkward for me because i never really thought somone could spent time reading what i write, since the fact i suck pretty much at school when it comes to write a newspaper article, an assignment or anything else. 

Althought no one is an 'official reader' (or how is it called) i think i understood that people do like to hear my opinion about different topics.

 So yesterday, since the fact i'm not feeling well (sore throat, headache and cold! yay! all together as a big lovely family of germs!! -.- ) I decided i was going to do a brainstorming about random things s i could talk about and it came out that i also could share with you something a bit more girly (like outfits, months favourite). I thought about them because these are not long blog post to make, i don't really think i could be able to write much about clothes and make up tbh ahah so maybe these could be posts i write when i'm busy, just not to leave my blog completely unapdated. Maybe some of you could also appreciate that...who knows. Anyway, my realtion with shoppingm, if i have to be honest,  is not that easy...but i'm not going to spoil anything, because i'd like to write about this.

Guess i should read this post all over again because i feel like i abused of the word 'blogpost' ahah 

Soon i would like to post a picture of myself, so you could see who's writing over here :D but i'm not looking the best at the moment so it's better for you not to see this big red nose of mine that makes me look like Rudolph !

I'm over with news..this was a short and fast update. 

ZBOGOM!! (Goodbye in Croatian) 

and also if i'm late HAPPY HALLOWEEN :)

Picture i made in my bedroom in Holland

My photography story .

I do not consider myself a photographer. I don't have a personal facebook page or a personal website, i think i'm not that good and famous to do that. This is why i don't understand why people that just buy a good camera just feel like they must have their name written on pictures that represents nothing (as lookbook with friends) and when they hit 100 likes on facebook on some of their ''artistic pictures'' they think that is time to create their own page to sadisfied all their fans!

In my opinion...this is not how it should work. I'm okay with people that buy SLR cameras, and i like the fact they try to use them as much as they can. I think that those people, at the same time, connect the idea of a good camera with the hability of a photographer. 

The pictures are the result of both; camera and who's behing the camera. Starting with this idea i approached to the world of photography. 

Everything started when a friend of mine, Ilaria, used to upload really good pictures on Netlog, and since the fact we all wanted to look good on social networks' pictures, we went out once with her to have nice portraits to upload! When i saw her camera i fell in love with it. It was much bigger than my parents one (an average compact camera), I noticed how good the pictures were in terms of quality, everything was looking way better on the screen with that camera. I started dreaming about getting one but that was when i was 14. After two years, in which i used to take macro pictures on every single family trip and than modify them using 'picnick' online, i finally got my Canon 1000D. That was an awesome christmas. I started taking pictures everywhere. I tried to avoid pictures of myself in the mirror holding my camera or pictures of friends of mine while they were in unnatural position, dressed in a better way than the average. 

After one year i decided that i didn't want to keep taking pictures with automatic settings and that's when i started following some lessons made by a photography association (Contrasti). Those 10 evenings helped me a lot in a technical way but also when it came to understand what kind of pictures i like to take.

I worked a couple of time in discos for events, same for big birthdays...but it just does not satisfy me enough. Yesterday i was working in Perugia at an 18bday party. Well the picture i like the most is one of the cake. I can't stand average birthday pictures with people with fake smile on, just standing there hoping for me to catch their best expression. Althought this is the kind of photo i do not like, is the easiest one to gain money, and that's why i accept everytime people ask me to do that. Oh i forget to say, i also took pictures for a football team for a couple of months...and that was sooo boring. 

In any case, i realised what i like to take pictures of when i was doing the things i love the most in the world; travelling. The lovest thing i could do while i'm abroad is to visit some place i've never been before taking pictures with all the kalm of the world, studying what i like the most about that place and than trying to capture it. 

I do love street photography. From the details of the cities, to the compositions of shapes you can find in the organization of a shop, the expression of the faces of subjects i don't know and i never will...eveyrthing looks so perfect and fascinating without being forced, it's all natural. 

This is what i like about photography; find harmony where you can.

I'm going to post below my favourite picture. I took this photo one year ago while i was in summer holiday in Holland, more precisely on Utrecht. I wanted to focus on a bike wheels but i had the luck to capture the exact moment in which every wheels of the street were on the same line. This creates this tunnel of circles that i absolutely love. I'm so proud of this work of mine!

My Flickr; http://www.flickr.com/photos/federicaz/

I have a Canon 1000D
Lenses; 18-55mm (Canon)
70-300mm (Sigma)


I'm going to buy my first tripod on amazon soon, just a cheap one (it's the first) and i'm thinking about a 50mm for portraits or a big flash for when i work at parties

I need another me...but more stable .

All these flowers in the background, this soft music...this all represent what I am half of the time. The other half I'm not that stable with my nerves. It takes just a little thing to drive me crazy (in a bad way). The most recent thing is the fact that on Saturday I have to take pictures during an 18bday party, I'll be payed so it should be great. Well I was actually screaming so loud because a pair of shoes I wanted to wear I took them to repair this afternoon, without thinking about the weekend. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a shopping girl (I sometimes am but not at high level) and is not the fact that I don't have my shoes, it's about the fact I forget  I needed them, I didn't plan everything as I thought. And this just made my unstable. I'm one of those persons that make lists, but my problem is that, although I have an agenda I can't live without, I make thousands lists, I try to plan everything...and when it comes I forget something, in my view of the situation, this is just unacceptable. My mum says I'm cruel with myself, I criticised everything about my body, my attitude etc. And I also do attack everything that's around me. 

I don't know why this happens but when it does I'm scared; I don't know where all this hate come from. Maybe the fact I recently broke up after a long distance relationship of 2 years? (I'll write about it I guess..not quite ready right now) I believe I just need to know that someone is always here for me. Maybe I need that person I recently closed with, or someone that is closer, maybe people I don't know or also friends that always say "I'm here for you, whenever you want"...but they're not actually. They do not invite me over for first, never, I'm always the second choice or the one that "if you want to come yeah sure", is not like they're really inviting me. Basically I feel selfish thinking about this now but the point is that, although I think and I realise that these things are as I see them, or maybe they're not..at the end they are not changing. 

I would like to have another me; someone who knows how I feel and that could give me the right council, who's always ready. 

I just really hope this shit period will be over soon. Maybe I could try talking with someone, like the school-psychologist...but I'm not quite sure; you come in my small town, and we don't have to pay you...doesn't seem logic in my opinion.

I think this blog is helping. To express my problem and explain them to you, ghosts readers, I need to analyse them. And that's what I'm supposed to do when I overreact.

I should always write this to you but, at the same time, remembering it to myself. 

LIFE IS A GAME WE PLAY!

( Picture from the internet )

     

Angry me .

Lots of people deal with panic attack, hunger attack (I got that too ahah), claustrophobic attack. Well my problem are the "anger attack". It's not like I went to the doctor and he told me I often deal with anger because of this this and this reason. I figure it out myself after thinking about the way I've been acting lately. I'm not enjoying my life at all. I'm always constantly anxious for everything but most of all I've been getting angrier and angrier in every situation. I know in this way it doesn't really sound easy to understand but with a couple of examples it shock è easier to understand. When I failed at things I don't get depressed, I become really angry with myself and with any one else. 

Recent example; I failed my driving license theory test. These testes are mainly based on lucky, and as I often say "I have bad luck since when I came to the world". On the 17th February 1995 my mum led me out and that 17th was a Friday! (Bad luck day in Italy). In any case, I was angry when I failed the test, I was angrier when I discovered that just for one mistake in excess I was over, I was even more angry when it came out that when I will have to remake the test there will be new testes with 800 new quizzes. When I opened my Facebook page that day, I saw at least 6 pictures of people I know showing their drive license, that they got in the morning, while I was busy failing mine. In that moment I just couldn't take it and I exploded. 

Today happened that I lost my glasses. This made me angry for the whole day and that's why it also inspired me to take my PC and star writing  here for you, my ghosts reader. When I realized is lost them at home I started searching them and this made me late for school, where I had to sign some papers that say you're late and you can be late for other 3 time until Xmas and stuff like that. When I came back home (I was feeling pretty happy for the 7.5 I got in German) I started searching them again, and I could find them. The contacts I used in the morning were giving me headache so I decided to take them off. As resul I'm angry, with a bit of headache, in my garden, listening to relax music that is not particularly helping me...considering the fact that I busted into tears several times. 

Does anyone have the same problem? How do you deal with your anger attack?

Picture i took in Amsterdam during the Gay Pride Parade 2012 ( on Flickr http://www.flickr.com/photos/federicaz/ )

Hey hey !

I can't believe i finally started writing! I honestly thought i was never going to do this.

Let's start with a presentation (not too full, not a small introductions ;) ).

My name is Federica and as you can tell from it i'm italian. I live in the center of my country, so i'm not any close to big cities (Rome is the closest 2h30 with car) and in my region we don't have sea! yay!

I'm 18 and on the 12nd of September i started my fifth and last year of high school. You may think i had to repeat the year, well no i've never had it's just that school in italy is one year longer! If you're shocked for this well wait to hear this; I don't have a proper weekend because we have always had school on saturday!

My high school focuses on the study of languages and that's why at the end of my 5 years i'm supposed to be talking in a good way english, french, german and italian ofc. I tried myself to leanr dutch and spanish but..yeah i was not that constant with the study, but i think that, at least for spanish, i could have make it.

For this interest i have in language i'm also a travels lover! I like travelling more than anything else and i think that to leave in Europe is the best thing that ever happened to me because i can fly everywhere and see a thousand things without even being on the other side of the globe. I've also been there..in Australia i mean. Last summer i went there and it was amazing. The things that i like the most about travelling, except for the new places to see and the new faces of people, are the pictures i take. Yes, i like photography, I got a Canon1000D (3 years old..i love that baby!) and every picture i take is a memory and i can't delete any of them (and that's why i finally bought an external memory ahah).  In my future i see myself teaching italian abroad, probably in Germany, and i'll work hard to do this !!

I'm a really talkative person and i think that it may be cool and usefull to write here what happens in my life and what i think about several topics; i said usefull because i think this is just the most perfect way that i have to wreake out all the thoughts i have in my mind .

And today, 11st October, that's where i start my journey! I'm apoligizing in advance for all the grammar mistakes and all the repetition i'll do but remember...i'm just SUPPOSED to be good at english at the end of school ahah kidding, i also want to improve so please, correct me :)

Remember; Life is a game we play! 

                                             My Flickr;  http://www.flickr.com/photos/federicaz/