Please Diana and random notes .

Good afternoon everyone !

Obviously I wish good morning or evening to all of you who are reading this post later or who live in time zones different from mine. 

As you may or may not have noticed,  I finally discovered how to change a couple of songs on the music bar on top of the blog, and that I found a background that I like more than roses. It wasn't flowers fault, it's just that they're the background on my phone and laptop as well. 

Than, I'd like to inform you that, with enormous surprise, this morning I saw that this blog reached 2K visualizations AND that this week I passed, with a pretty good mark, the language test I had in Uni to see if I was level C1 in English :)  

Now let's move to the main topic of this post. 

On Sunday morning, a friend of mine told me that, on Google+, he noticed all the links I posted about my blog. He was curious and he came into this page, read something and liked it ! It may seems quite normal for you, but it wasn't for me. Fact is, if I write in English and I don't post anything about this blog on Facebook, is mainly because I don't want people who live around me or that know me, to read it. There's nothing that I'm ashamed of or that is so particular that no one knows about it, I'm just both afraid and annoyed of their judgments.

BUT, knowing that there are Italian readers or people that may know what I'm talking about, without too many descriptions...I can think about new topics that I previously considered useless to share.

Today, for example, I'm going to write about a music band. 

Thanks to a friend, I started reconsidering Italian music in October, discovering groups as the Gazebo Penguins, I Ministri and the ''FASK'' (Fast Animals and Slow Kids).

Randomly I saw that a group of guys, few years older than me and who live in my area, were in a band, won a competition and had the opportunity to make a CD, to record their own songs. When I heard a couple of them, I already knew that I really liked them ! The whole album, although it was their first one, turned out to be one of my favorites. They are known as ''Please Diana''. Some of the musicians are friends of mine, and I knew the others because, as I said, we all live in the same area. 

I don't know much about their history, but I bet you can discover more on their website, where you will also be able to find their Twitter and Instagram accounts, Facebook page, YouTube channel etc. 

You can download their songs and you'll ''pay with a tweet''. This means that, promoting their albums on both Facebook and Twitter, you ''pay'', and you can download the album (for free, basically). 

Although you may or may not understand the lyrics, I highly recommend you to listen to their songs, they're really great. I had the opportunity to shoot some backstage pictures, when they were recording their new music videos, and I had sooo much fun. 

I hope that you enjoyed reading, I wish you all a good weekend and have a nice day !

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The ''Have you ever'' test .

HeyHey

Back when everyone used MSN to chat, instead of WhatsApp and Facebook, I used to have another blog. It was completely different from this one. Starting from the theme, I did it in green with apples everywhere, one in light blue and bottles of milk (??)...it sounds strange but they were really cute actually, than I wrote in Italian there, I often copied lyrics from different songs, I posted awkward pictures of mine (you know, those pictures you could find in Netlog as well...so embarrassing) and I also used to post different testes I did. On my external memory I found some of those testes, as the ''have you ever'' one. So, since the fact I promised you to post some outfits for spring using the clothes i bought when I was abroad and on the Internet BUT I haven't shoot the pictures yet, I thought that with this test you could get to know me a bit better (if you want). 

 Let's get started ! (I had to cut some questions out because there were too many!) 

 ✔ not slept during the whole night? I partied until 7am this summer when I was in Germany, awesome!

✘  run away from a big angry dog

✔ grown a cactus?

✔ grown any plant from a seed? With my scout group we're working on a vegetable garden at the                  moment

✔  been under a waterfall? both natural and unnatural 

✘  sit and stare someone (and they stared back) for more than 1 min( not in a staring game)?

     that would be awkward I guess...

✘  been out during a snow storm? 

✔ lost someone you love?

✔ met and befriended someone born on the same day as you?

✘  been out in the pouring rain for more than 30 min and enjoyed it? Didn't enjoy it...sorry!

✔ won a staring-at-eachother-but-not-laughing-game? I proudly did recently !

✘  petted a tiger? I have lots of turtles...do they count?

✔ seriously fallen in love with a fictional character?

    Ronald Weasley, you'll always have a special  place in my heart 

✘  been completely alone for at least 2 days? I can't do that, I'm too talkative !

✔ been drunk? Many adventures 

✘  broken someones window and run away? It was a vase, and it was in a monastery 

✘  insulted a teacher? I'm not a ''model'' student but I believe in respecting the different roles

✘  bungee-jumped? I'm not planning to tbh, I find it really scary !

✘  roller-skated all day? I tried to learn how to roller-skate...I failed -.-

✔ fallen in love?

✔ talked on the phone for more than 2 hours in a row?

    Back then I didn't even have a contract with free calls in it...I spent 10 euros of credit in 2 hours !

✔ gotten lost in a forest?

    It was one year ago and my friend and I had to reach the top of the mountain to find the way back !✔ slept in a tent? 

✘  helt a butterfly in your hands? I can't remember tbh 

✔ fallen asleep to your favorite music? 

✘  killed something other than a insect or spider?

✔ forgotten something VERY IMPORTANT?

    My mum's birthday and some others...I'm a good daughter/friend !

✔ listened to the same favorite song over and over again more than 10 times? It's routine !

✘  texted/sms-ed someone half of the night? I like to sleep, that's it 

✘  sung karaoke? 

     It has to be a no, because I can sing just when I have headphones on, so I can't hear my own voice

✘  eaten a whole giant cake by yourself ?

     I'm planning to with my brother...stay tune to discover how it will end

✔ spent the whole day reading?

✔ kissed a photo of someone other than your family or a celebrity?

    Social networks make this incredibly easy!

✔ enjoyed thunder, rain and lightning? 

    With a good cup of tea, the fireplace on and a blanket in a cold winter day...who doesn't 

✔ climbed a tree and not been able to climb down and forced to ask someone to take you down? 

     It happened also with some buildings and walls...they weren't even that high 

✔ started loving something you used to hate? 

✔ won a dare?

✔ lost a dare? and since the fact I can't lose...I didn't accept it. 

✘  eaten strawberries until you felt sick?

    They're quite expensive in my opinion and I've never really bought that much strawberries 

✔ cried 2 hours in a row?

✔ baked a cake? Although I'm really terrible when it come to cooking...I proudly did, It was eatable,            everyone digested it...and I need to admit that 

✘  banged your head against the wall on purpose?    ...

✔ tried to swim somewhere where the water is only up to your knees? 

✔ gotten a paper cut?

✔ fallen down the stairs?

✔ tried on a wedding dress? 

    It was my mum's one. She was so thin when she get married...the dress didn't fit me :(

✔ washed a huge pile of dishes by yourself? Let's take a moment to insult my brother 

✘  had a long conversation on the phone with a stranger? I bet it would be fun 

✘  gotten a big encyclopedia as a present from a relative?

And here these are my answer, try to redo this test in your blog, there are many others if you google for them! Hope you like this blog post and the new songs! Have a nice day :)
Hope you like the new songs :)

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Random chat .

HeyHey!  

How are you? One week ago I wrote a post about my favourites of the month and it seems like you didn't like it that much, am I right? Well, at least, that's what  Blogger says showing the visualisations of the different posts I wrote. I think I'll try to reduce this kind of topic (like girly one), they are more for "fashion blogger" (that I am not and I don't want to be). I will basically stop because I feel like it's not what I started to write about. I don't want/can/should become a fashion blogger or something like that, not my style ahah In any case, this is just a quick talk/update. 

I almost recover completely from the bronchitis. This week I went back at school was absolutely terrible; all the oral and written tests I missed those 5 days I spent at home sick, I had to remake during this week, although I already had other tests. This led me to cry a lot, to swear against everything, to be particularly mad ad anyone for stupid reasons; In few words, I was hysterical (as my brother kindly defined me). BUT all this negativity/hate I had against school...made me appreciate/enjoy even more all those things I do more than study, such as the two acting lessons I'm taking (one of them is almost over, on the 17th we'll have the play we've worked on), scout, gymnastic (that right now is basically coming back to school walking as much as I can) etc. I even started paying more attention on the things I watch and hear. 

I had a small time on Friday afternoon to shopping with mum and I bought a couple of items I've already wear ahah I don't know what about you but I really like to start wearing things when they are new! I can't wait to see how I style them and stuff. 

This weekend I haven't done much. Let's start saying that my weekend starts on Saturday afternoon (because in the morning I have school). I was out with friends during the afternoon and than out again in the evening for a 20 bday aperitif/dinner (this was so cool).

Oh I had the check at the dietitian...it strangely went well. When I told her I started to eat again in a nervous way when I study, she really seemed a bit bothered, and for this reason when it came out I lost 1.3 kg (basically doing nothing special)  she was as surprised as I was!

Okay this blog post is turning into a single chatter about my life and a bounce of events you don't even care about ahah sorry! To make this post a bit more interesting I'll post a picture of how I started decorating my bedroom for Christmas 

The quality is not the best one, this red looks way brighter than the original (made with iPhone)

For the first time I bought these cute little lights for my bedroom. I saw them in many YouTube videos and i thought  they were so cute I couldn't wait to buy them at the Chinese shop, where I was surely going to find them for few euros (100 lights, 4€). Lots of people have them in blue and I personally searched for white/blue lights but then when I didn't find them I realised that maybe this warm yellow light was going to be more adapt to my bedroom, that has cream walls and red items everywhere. 

The deck I got from Butlers is so cute and you can turn it and there's the same print on the other side but in blue, white and maybe green (can't properly remember right now tbh ahah)

Have a nice week everyone :) 

Remember that Life is a game we play !

Just for Bloglovin .

HeyHey!

Yes, i do know this is the second blog post i write today, but i tried to claim my blog on Bloglovin and it says i should paste on one of my blogpost this link (that i'll paste below) so, this post has not a real purpose ahah

<a href="http://www.bloglovin.com/blog/11105563/?claim=6dzmt279epa">Follow my blog with Bloglovin</a>

Done! :) Now it should work...it should! 

What to do with this blog .

Heyhey !

 Today i reached 105 visualisations (yeeee) of this internet page...and this is pretty awkward for me because i never really thought somone could spent time reading what i write, since the fact i suck pretty much at school when it comes to write a newspaper article, an assignment or anything else. 

Althought no one is an 'official reader' (or how is it called) i think i understood that people do like to hear my opinion about different topics.

 So yesterday, since the fact i'm not feeling well (sore throat, headache and cold! yay! all together as a big lovely family of germs!! -.- ) I decided i was going to do a brainstorming about random things s i could talk about and it came out that i also could share with you something a bit more girly (like outfits, months favourite). I thought about them because these are not long blog post to make, i don't really think i could be able to write much about clothes and make up tbh ahah so maybe these could be posts i write when i'm busy, just not to leave my blog completely unapdated. Maybe some of you could also appreciate that...who knows. Anyway, my realtion with shoppingm, if i have to be honest,  is not that easy...but i'm not going to spoil anything, because i'd like to write about this.

Guess i should read this post all over again because i feel like i abused of the word 'blogpost' ahah 

Soon i would like to post a picture of myself, so you could see who's writing over here :D but i'm not looking the best at the moment so it's better for you not to see this big red nose of mine that makes me look like Rudolph !

I'm over with news..this was a short and fast update. 

ZBOGOM!! (Goodbye in Croatian) 

and also if i'm late HAPPY HALLOWEEN :)

Picture i made in my bedroom in Holland

I need another me...but more stable .

All these flowers in the background, this soft music...this all represent what I am half of the time. The other half I'm not that stable with my nerves. It takes just a little thing to drive me crazy (in a bad way). The most recent thing is the fact that on Saturday I have to take pictures during an 18bday party, I'll be payed so it should be great. Well I was actually screaming so loud because a pair of shoes I wanted to wear I took them to repair this afternoon, without thinking about the weekend. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a shopping girl (I sometimes am but not at high level) and is not the fact that I don't have my shoes, it's about the fact I forget  I needed them, I didn't plan everything as I thought. And this just made my unstable. I'm one of those persons that make lists, but my problem is that, although I have an agenda I can't live without, I make thousands lists, I try to plan everything...and when it comes I forget something, in my view of the situation, this is just unacceptable. My mum says I'm cruel with myself, I criticised everything about my body, my attitude etc. And I also do attack everything that's around me. 

I don't know why this happens but when it does I'm scared; I don't know where all this hate come from. Maybe the fact I recently broke up after a long distance relationship of 2 years? (I'll write about it I guess..not quite ready right now) I believe I just need to know that someone is always here for me. Maybe I need that person I recently closed with, or someone that is closer, maybe people I don't know or also friends that always say "I'm here for you, whenever you want"...but they're not actually. They do not invite me over for first, never, I'm always the second choice or the one that "if you want to come yeah sure", is not like they're really inviting me. Basically I feel selfish thinking about this now but the point is that, although I think and I realise that these things are as I see them, or maybe they're not..at the end they are not changing. 

I would like to have another me; someone who knows how I feel and that could give me the right council, who's always ready. 

I just really hope this shit period will be over soon. Maybe I could try talking with someone, like the school-psychologist...but I'm not quite sure; you come in my small town, and we don't have to pay you...doesn't seem logic in my opinion.

I think this blog is helping. To express my problem and explain them to you, ghosts readers, I need to analyse them. And that's what I'm supposed to do when I overreact.

I should always write this to you but, at the same time, remembering it to myself. 

LIFE IS A GAME WE PLAY!

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Angry me .

Lots of people deal with panic attack, hunger attack (I got that too ahah), claustrophobic attack. Well my problem are the "anger attack". It's not like I went to the doctor and he told me I often deal with anger because of this this and this reason. I figure it out myself after thinking about the way I've been acting lately. I'm not enjoying my life at all. I'm always constantly anxious for everything but most of all I've been getting angrier and angrier in every situation. I know in this way it doesn't really sound easy to understand but with a couple of examples it shock è easier to understand. When I failed at things I don't get depressed, I become really angry with myself and with any one else. 

Recent example; I failed my driving license theory test. These testes are mainly based on lucky, and as I often say "I have bad luck since when I came to the world". On the 17th February 1995 my mum led me out and that 17th was a Friday! (Bad luck day in Italy). In any case, I was angry when I failed the test, I was angrier when I discovered that just for one mistake in excess I was over, I was even more angry when it came out that when I will have to remake the test there will be new testes with 800 new quizzes. When I opened my Facebook page that day, I saw at least 6 pictures of people I know showing their drive license, that they got in the morning, while I was busy failing mine. In that moment I just couldn't take it and I exploded. 

Today happened that I lost my glasses. This made me angry for the whole day and that's why it also inspired me to take my PC and star writing  here for you, my ghosts reader. When I realized is lost them at home I started searching them and this made me late for school, where I had to sign some papers that say you're late and you can be late for other 3 time until Xmas and stuff like that. When I came back home (I was feeling pretty happy for the 7.5 I got in German) I started searching them again, and I could find them. The contacts I used in the morning were giving me headache so I decided to take them off. As resul I'm angry, with a bit of headache, in my garden, listening to relax music that is not particularly helping me...considering the fact that I busted into tears several times. 

Does anyone have the same problem? How do you deal with your anger attack?

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Hey hey !

I can't believe i finally started writing! I honestly thought i was never going to do this.

Let's start with a presentation (not too full, not a small introductions ;) ).

My name is Federica and as you can tell from it i'm italian. I live in the center of my country, so i'm not any close to big cities (Rome is the closest 2h30 with car) and in my region we don't have sea! yay!

I'm 18 and on the 12nd of September i started my fifth and last year of high school. You may think i had to repeat the year, well no i've never had it's just that school in italy is one year longer! If you're shocked for this well wait to hear this; I don't have a proper weekend because we have always had school on saturday!

My high school focuses on the study of languages and that's why at the end of my 5 years i'm supposed to be talking in a good way english, french, german and italian ofc. I tried myself to leanr dutch and spanish but..yeah i was not that constant with the study, but i think that, at least for spanish, i could have make it.

For this interest i have in language i'm also a travels lover! I like travelling more than anything else and i think that to leave in Europe is the best thing that ever happened to me because i can fly everywhere and see a thousand things without even being on the other side of the globe. I've also been there..in Australia i mean. Last summer i went there and it was amazing. The things that i like the most about travelling, except for the new places to see and the new faces of people, are the pictures i take. Yes, i like photography, I got a Canon1000D (3 years old..i love that baby!) and every picture i take is a memory and i can't delete any of them (and that's why i finally bought an external memory ahah).  In my future i see myself teaching italian abroad, probably in Germany, and i'll work hard to do this !!

I'm a really talkative person and i think that it may be cool and usefull to write here what happens in my life and what i think about several topics; i said usefull because i think this is just the most perfect way that i have to wreake out all the thoughts i have in my mind .

And today, 11st October, that's where i start my journey! I'm apoligizing in advance for all the grammar mistakes and all the repetition i'll do but remember...i'm just SUPPOSED to be good at english at the end of school ahah kidding, i also want to improve so please, correct me :)

Remember; Life is a game we play! 

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