Please Diana and random notes .

Good afternoon everyone !

Obviously I wish good morning or evening to all of you who are reading this post later or who live in time zones different from mine. 

As you may or may not have noticed,  I finally discovered how to change a couple of songs on the music bar on top of the blog, and that I found a background that I like more than roses. It wasn't flowers fault, it's just that they're the background on my phone and laptop as well. 

Than, I'd like to inform you that, with enormous surprise, this morning I saw that this blog reached 2K visualizations AND that this week I passed, with a pretty good mark, the language test I had in Uni to see if I was level C1 in English :)  

Now let's move to the main topic of this post. 

On Sunday morning, a friend of mine told me that, on Google+, he noticed all the links I posted about my blog. He was curious and he came into this page, read something and liked it ! It may seems quite normal for you, but it wasn't for me. Fact is, if I write in English and I don't post anything about this blog on Facebook, is mainly because I don't want people who live around me or that know me, to read it. There's nothing that I'm ashamed of or that is so particular that no one knows about it, I'm just both afraid and annoyed of their judgments.

BUT, knowing that there are Italian readers or people that may know what I'm talking about, without too many descriptions...I can think about new topics that I previously considered useless to share.

Today, for example, I'm going to write about a music band. 

Thanks to a friend, I started reconsidering Italian music in October, discovering groups as the Gazebo Penguins, I Ministri and the ''FASK'' (Fast Animals and Slow Kids).

Randomly I saw that a group of guys, few years older than me and who live in my area, were in a band, won a competition and had the opportunity to make a CD, to record their own songs. When I heard a couple of them, I already knew that I really liked them ! The whole album, although it was their first one, turned out to be one of my favorites. They are known as ''Please Diana''. Some of the musicians are friends of mine, and I knew the others because, as I said, we all live in the same area. 

I don't know much about their history, but I bet you can discover more on their website, where you will also be able to find their Twitter and Instagram accounts, Facebook page, YouTube channel etc. 

You can download their songs and you'll ''pay with a tweet''. This means that, promoting their albums on both Facebook and Twitter, you ''pay'', and you can download the album (for free, basically). 

Although you may or may not understand the lyrics, I highly recommend you to listen to their songs, they're really great. I had the opportunity to shoot some backstage pictures, when they were recording their new music videos, and I had sooo much fun. 

I hope that you enjoyed reading, I wish you all a good weekend and have a nice day !

ℱede

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University, here I am .

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I know, I always start out like this...but I apologize (again) for the lack of posts. 

I recently (on Wednesday) started University. It's a completely different thing that leads to a whole new organization of my daytime. I rarely wake up before 9 am, I often have to take both train and Minimetro, a sort of small tram that goes around Perugia, which is the main city in my region, where more or less all the Universities are. I'm completely alone in my new class, I always need to change room, I sometimes have to wait some hours between the first lesson and the second one...BUT I like all this because it's new !

As I wrote in my ''presentation'' I would like to become and Italian teacher abroad, and this University (University for Foreigners) is perfect for my future project. My class is composed by only 25 people or so, the majority are Japanese or Chinese students, and all the others are Italians, Moroccans and one American. I can honestly say that I had no words with anyone in my class, I spoke with nobody, I'm terribly shy...and this is not something that happened to me before. I usually am very friendly, extrovert...but in this new class, I have the feeling, that I'm the only one at my first year, I feel like I'm the youngest and I'm afraid to start a conversation with older people, although we may have only 2 or 3 years of difference. I hope I will make friends soon or it will be pretty terrible for me whenever I'll miss a lesson or anything else.

A part from my class, I enjoyed the few lessons I had this first week ! 

I want to share with you this lovely post that my Mum successfully published on my Facebook Wall ! So proud of her...it usually takes 20 minutes or so, in her case, to understand how to do anything on the internet ahah

1 Settembre 1997 Fede il primo giorno di asilo
1 Ottobre 2014 il mio pulcino apre le ali...e va all'università.
Fede, vola in alto, raggiungi i tuoi sogni !
 Ricorda che se la tua strada è in salita, è solo perché sei destinata ad arrivare in altro.
Con l'affetto di sempre..        

Mamma

Translation (more or less): 1st September 1997,  Fede her fist day or kindergarten. 1st October 2014, my chick opens her wings...and goes to Univeristy. Fede, fly high, reach your dreams! Remeber that if you're way is hard, it's only because you're bound to arrive really high ! With love... Mum''

I'll try my best in posting new things this week, I have a haul on his way and a couple of other ideas, hopefully I'll write something at the end of next week, you'll see if I'll wake it or not...you can always check my twitter for updates :) Have a nice Sunday !

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The National Route 2014 .

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So, since when I was 8 years old I've been a scout. Not a ''boy scout'' as we're called worldwide, but just a scout. I started because my parents were both scouts when they were younger, they both went in the group we have in Assisi and so did I when it came my time. After me my brother and all my 5 cousins started this journey.

 I spent 4 years with the ''Lupetti'' that is the first group in which you play, do several activities and slowly get involved in the mentality that is required to be a scout. You learn to share things, to help the others and when you finally think that you understand how this all system works, than you change group.

In fact, on the 2nd year of middle school, I started the ''Reparto'' that is another group that lasts for 4 years, that I left on my 2nd year of high school. Basically this is where the stereotype of the average scout is created. You walk a lot, you sell calendars and other things for charity (not biscuits, sorry!), you sleep in tents and you cook and eat on structures that you build with woods and ropes. Also in this case, when you know everything it's time to move on.

And here I am, at the end of my 3rd year of ''clan'', the last group in which you learn how to be yourself in society, to help the others out. 

I started this long journey, that can be defined as a lifestyle as well, back in 2003 I believe, and this year I had the opportunity to be part of one of the most amazing scout experience you can live: the National Route.

The ''vacation'' of 10 days you do when you're in the Clan, is called route, mainly because you walk, change location almost every night and you carry on your shoulder everything you need (the essential). It's a period that you spend with your group...but this year was different.

In 1975 there was the first National Route; all the Clans (or at least, the biggest part of them) that existed at the time in Italy, all went together in Route. In 1986 the same thing happened. And finally...after almost 30 years, in 2014 we had the opportunity to live this event on a National level.

We were 35.000 scouts, we were divided in 460 groups composed by guys from different Clans. Every group was composed by 70 to 60 people. From the 1st to the 5th of August, the different groups walked in different parts of Italy, on the 6th everyone traveled to San Rossore, a park near Pisa, and there we met, all 35.000 !

My group was the Route 190. My Clan hosted the others, this means that we walked and did our activities in the territory close to Assisi (where I live). The Clans that we hosted where from Alba, Cava dei Tirreni, Pescara and Gorizia. This last one is a city located on the bound between Slovenia and Italy, so they all speak fluently both Italian and Slovenian. We were in 67 and I miss every single person.

On the 6th all the buses left from a city close to Assisi, so we went there, traveled for 4h or so and finally arrived in the night in Pisa! And when we met all the other 35.000...well...let's say this picture doesn't give you the smallest idea of what it was!

I want to thank everyone! It was an amazing experience...and it makes me emotional to think that I was so lucky to be one of those people, one of those that had the opportunity to be part of such an amazing event!

Probably this blog post wasn't as interesting as you expected, it was different from what I normally write about. The quality of the pictures is not high, none of us had a DSLR camera ofc, and these are all photos taken by friends of mine. Hope you liked this post in any case, maybe you learned something new, who knows? If you're a little bit more interested in the event now, you can google and look for information and videos on YouTube about the event. There are lots of them, and they'll give you the idea of what it was better than all the words I wrote to describe it. Have a nice week everyone :)

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My future .

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As you may know if you read my introduction, i'm on my final year of high school here in Italy and on June, if everything goes for the best i'll have the final exam. If i'll pass it...i'll finally be out of high school..YAY! Differently from my english peers i won't have a gap year. Hold on, i lied..my english peers are already in Uni...dammit (My school lasts longer, don't worry i didn't have to repeat the year or anything else :P). In any case, i won't have any break between high school and Uni. I'll be over (hopefully) high school at the beginning of July and Uni starts in October. 

The biggest part of my classmates have no clue of what they want to do after school, what they want to become when they'll be adults. I personaly have a clear idea.

There were several situations/people who made me realize i wanted to become an italian teacher abroad, in particular in Germany, since the fact i love the language and the life over there, but also the Netherlands and England could be a good places...we'll see what life will give me.

When i had the exchange with the Netherlands on my 2nd year of high school, the teachers who was organizing the trip on the dutch side was a german woman who teached german (ofc) in Holland. That was amazing for me. A second exchange we had was with the far Australia (amazing experience btw) and when i realized that the girls our partners were studying italian at school i kinda understood that my language is not that bad for the other people in the world. With those girls we went in Perugia (a city here in italy, not so far from my small city) to take a short lessons at the Uni for foreign people who were trying to learn italian. That blow my mind ahah I know, it doesn't seem anything special but cmon when i say '' I would like to become an italian teacher abroad'' i feel so proud of myself!

Actually i'm still searching for the perfect Uni where to go. I got three options to reach my point

- Move to Germany > find a work > start talking a better german > get the lever C1 > get into Uni

- Move to Germany > find a Uni for foreing person > get into Uni

- Stay in Italy > get into Uni for foreign people in Perugia taking lessons to teach italian abroad for 3 years < forget German > move to Germany > get the level C1 > live there 

the last one is the easiest to study but the hardest to make it in germany, but i could make it anywhere else maybe...who knows. In any case, for now this is my plan. Last weekend i've been with my mum who went there for work in a lovely town in Germany called Wertheim. First of all let me tell you... i made amazing pictures. I had the opportunity to go around the village alone for the whole day, just me and my camera. And it was...fantastic! Perfect! But the main reason i went there was that i could use that short trip to collect as many information as i could for the Uni. I got something more than what i used to know before ofc and other information i will get in emails. 

Was nice to share with you this project of mine. I do know is not the easiest things to do and that i'm still young and bla bla bla but hey, LIFE IS A GAME WE PLAY and my parents support me in this so i'm really determinated at the moment.

What do you want to do with your life guys? let me know in the comment below! And if you have any advices for me...go on than! :)

I really like this picture i took in  a Café in Amsterdam last Summer after the Gay Pride Canal Parade. I've always liked it, it gives me the idea i have of Vintage, don't know why, maybe just because of the vinyl. Just wanted to share it :)
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What to do with this blog .

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 Today i reached 105 visualisations (yeeee) of this internet page...and this is pretty awkward for me because i never really thought somone could spent time reading what i write, since the fact i suck pretty much at school when it comes to write a newspaper article, an assignment or anything else. 

Althought no one is an 'official reader' (or how is it called) i think i understood that people do like to hear my opinion about different topics.

 So yesterday, since the fact i'm not feeling well (sore throat, headache and cold! yay! all together as a big lovely family of germs!! -.- ) I decided i was going to do a brainstorming about random things s i could talk about and it came out that i also could share with you something a bit more girly (like outfits, months favourite). I thought about them because these are not long blog post to make, i don't really think i could be able to write much about clothes and make up tbh ahah so maybe these could be posts i write when i'm busy, just not to leave my blog completely unapdated. Maybe some of you could also appreciate that...who knows. Anyway, my realtion with shoppingm, if i have to be honest,  is not that easy...but i'm not going to spoil anything, because i'd like to write about this.

Guess i should read this post all over again because i feel like i abused of the word 'blogpost' ahah 

Soon i would like to post a picture of myself, so you could see who's writing over here :D but i'm not looking the best at the moment so it's better for you not to see this big red nose of mine that makes me look like Rudolph !

I'm over with news..this was a short and fast update. 

ZBOGOM!! (Goodbye in Croatian) 

and also if i'm late HAPPY HALLOWEEN :)

Picture i made in my bedroom in Holland

My photography story .

I do not consider myself a photographer. I don't have a personal facebook page or a personal website, i think i'm not that good and famous to do that. This is why i don't understand why people that just buy a good camera just feel like they must have their name written on pictures that represents nothing (as lookbook with friends) and when they hit 100 likes on facebook on some of their ''artistic pictures'' they think that is time to create their own page to sadisfied all their fans!

In my opinion...this is not how it should work. I'm okay with people that buy SLR cameras, and i like the fact they try to use them as much as they can. I think that those people, at the same time, connect the idea of a good camera with the hability of a photographer. 

The pictures are the result of both; camera and who's behing the camera. Starting with this idea i approached to the world of photography. 

Everything started when a friend of mine, Ilaria, used to upload really good pictures on Netlog, and since the fact we all wanted to look good on social networks' pictures, we went out once with her to have nice portraits to upload! When i saw her camera i fell in love with it. It was much bigger than my parents one (an average compact camera), I noticed how good the pictures were in terms of quality, everything was looking way better on the screen with that camera. I started dreaming about getting one but that was when i was 14. After two years, in which i used to take macro pictures on every single family trip and than modify them using 'picnick' online, i finally got my Canon 1000D. That was an awesome christmas. I started taking pictures everywhere. I tried to avoid pictures of myself in the mirror holding my camera or pictures of friends of mine while they were in unnatural position, dressed in a better way than the average. 

After one year i decided that i didn't want to keep taking pictures with automatic settings and that's when i started following some lessons made by a photography association (Contrasti). Those 10 evenings helped me a lot in a technical way but also when it came to understand what kind of pictures i like to take.

I worked a couple of time in discos for events, same for big birthdays...but it just does not satisfy me enough. Yesterday i was working in Perugia at an 18bday party. Well the picture i like the most is one of the cake. I can't stand average birthday pictures with people with fake smile on, just standing there hoping for me to catch their best expression. Althought this is the kind of photo i do not like, is the easiest one to gain money, and that's why i accept everytime people ask me to do that. Oh i forget to say, i also took pictures for a football team for a couple of months...and that was sooo boring. 

In any case, i realised what i like to take pictures of when i was doing the things i love the most in the world; travelling. The lovest thing i could do while i'm abroad is to visit some place i've never been before taking pictures with all the kalm of the world, studying what i like the most about that place and than trying to capture it. 

I do love street photography. From the details of the cities, to the compositions of shapes you can find in the organization of a shop, the expression of the faces of subjects i don't know and i never will...eveyrthing looks so perfect and fascinating without being forced, it's all natural. 

This is what i like about photography; find harmony where you can.

I'm going to post below my favourite picture. I took this photo one year ago while i was in summer holiday in Holland, more precisely on Utrecht. I wanted to focus on a bike wheels but i had the luck to capture the exact moment in which every wheels of the street were on the same line. This creates this tunnel of circles that i absolutely love. I'm so proud of this work of mine!

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I have a Canon 1000D
Lenses; 18-55mm (Canon)
70-300mm (Sigma)


I'm going to buy my first tripod on amazon soon, just a cheap one (it's the first) and i'm thinking about a 50mm for portraits or a big flash for when i work at parties

I need another me...but more stable .

All these flowers in the background, this soft music...this all represent what I am half of the time. The other half I'm not that stable with my nerves. It takes just a little thing to drive me crazy (in a bad way). The most recent thing is the fact that on Saturday I have to take pictures during an 18bday party, I'll be payed so it should be great. Well I was actually screaming so loud because a pair of shoes I wanted to wear I took them to repair this afternoon, without thinking about the weekend. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a shopping girl (I sometimes am but not at high level) and is not the fact that I don't have my shoes, it's about the fact I forget  I needed them, I didn't plan everything as I thought. And this just made my unstable. I'm one of those persons that make lists, but my problem is that, although I have an agenda I can't live without, I make thousands lists, I try to plan everything...and when it comes I forget something, in my view of the situation, this is just unacceptable. My mum says I'm cruel with myself, I criticised everything about my body, my attitude etc. And I also do attack everything that's around me. 

I don't know why this happens but when it does I'm scared; I don't know where all this hate come from. Maybe the fact I recently broke up after a long distance relationship of 2 years? (I'll write about it I guess..not quite ready right now) I believe I just need to know that someone is always here for me. Maybe I need that person I recently closed with, or someone that is closer, maybe people I don't know or also friends that always say "I'm here for you, whenever you want"...but they're not actually. They do not invite me over for first, never, I'm always the second choice or the one that "if you want to come yeah sure", is not like they're really inviting me. Basically I feel selfish thinking about this now but the point is that, although I think and I realise that these things are as I see them, or maybe they're not..at the end they are not changing. 

I would like to have another me; someone who knows how I feel and that could give me the right council, who's always ready. 

I just really hope this shit period will be over soon. Maybe I could try talking with someone, like the school-psychologist...but I'm not quite sure; you come in my small town, and we don't have to pay you...doesn't seem logic in my opinion.

I think this blog is helping. To express my problem and explain them to you, ghosts readers, I need to analyse them. And that's what I'm supposed to do when I overreact.

I should always write this to you but, at the same time, remembering it to myself. 

LIFE IS A GAME WE PLAY!

( Picture from the internet )

     

Hey hey !

I can't believe i finally started writing! I honestly thought i was never going to do this.

Let's start with a presentation (not too full, not a small introductions ;) ).

My name is Federica and as you can tell from it i'm italian. I live in the center of my country, so i'm not any close to big cities (Rome is the closest 2h30 with car) and in my region we don't have sea! yay!

I'm 18 and on the 12nd of September i started my fifth and last year of high school. You may think i had to repeat the year, well no i've never had it's just that school in italy is one year longer! If you're shocked for this well wait to hear this; I don't have a proper weekend because we have always had school on saturday!

My high school focuses on the study of languages and that's why at the end of my 5 years i'm supposed to be talking in a good way english, french, german and italian ofc. I tried myself to leanr dutch and spanish but..yeah i was not that constant with the study, but i think that, at least for spanish, i could have make it.

For this interest i have in language i'm also a travels lover! I like travelling more than anything else and i think that to leave in Europe is the best thing that ever happened to me because i can fly everywhere and see a thousand things without even being on the other side of the globe. I've also been there..in Australia i mean. Last summer i went there and it was amazing. The things that i like the most about travelling, except for the new places to see and the new faces of people, are the pictures i take. Yes, i like photography, I got a Canon1000D (3 years old..i love that baby!) and every picture i take is a memory and i can't delete any of them (and that's why i finally bought an external memory ahah).  In my future i see myself teaching italian abroad, probably in Germany, and i'll work hard to do this !!

I'm a really talkative person and i think that it may be cool and usefull to write here what happens in my life and what i think about several topics; i said usefull because i think this is just the most perfect way that i have to wreake out all the thoughts i have in my mind .

And today, 11st October, that's where i start my journey! I'm apoligizing in advance for all the grammar mistakes and all the repetition i'll do but remember...i'm just SUPPOSED to be good at english at the end of school ahah kidding, i also want to improve so please, correct me :)

Remember; Life is a game we play! 

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