Such a nice Owl - Duolingo .

HeyHey

Today i want to write about an amazing app i discovered thanks to Beckie0 (check out her YouTube channel, so different and so special. Subscribe!). While i was reading one of her tweet i found out about Duolingo. Obviously i'm talking about the app but there's a website connected to it. What you do on this website is basically learn languages for free. There are not as many languages as on Livemocha (yes, i tried this one too trying to learn dutch ahah) but on Duolingo you can practice always and as much as you want. If you don't understand they explain you and starting from your language you'll be able to learn the basic element of a new language. At the moment i'm learning spanish from English (i couldn't find from italian on the app ahah) and i need to say that i find myself really motivated to keep learning. 

This is my profile, you can add me searching for Fede_RS 

If you want to learn French, English, Portuguese or Spanish, i higly recommend this app. I did not talk with this website at all, i'm not  publicizing anything, I just want to let you know that there are lots of way to learn languages and that you should never stop. 

This time i was really brief, wasn't I? Comment below telling me what are the languages you like the most and why! :) 

My future .

HeyHey! 

As you may know if you read my introduction, i'm on my final year of high school here in Italy and on June, if everything goes for the best i'll have the final exam. If i'll pass it...i'll finally be out of high school..YAY! Differently from my english peers i won't have a gap year. Hold on, i lied..my english peers are already in Uni...dammit (My school lasts longer, don't worry i didn't have to repeat the year or anything else :P). In any case, i won't have any break between high school and Uni. I'll be over (hopefully) high school at the beginning of July and Uni starts in October. 

The biggest part of my classmates have no clue of what they want to do after school, what they want to become when they'll be adults. I personaly have a clear idea.

There were several situations/people who made me realize i wanted to become an italian teacher abroad, in particular in Germany, since the fact i love the language and the life over there, but also the Netherlands and England could be a good places...we'll see what life will give me.

When i had the exchange with the Netherlands on my 2nd year of high school, the teachers who was organizing the trip on the dutch side was a german woman who teached german (ofc) in Holland. That was amazing for me. A second exchange we had was with the far Australia (amazing experience btw) and when i realized that the girls our partners were studying italian at school i kinda understood that my language is not that bad for the other people in the world. With those girls we went in Perugia (a city here in italy, not so far from my small city) to take a short lessons at the Uni for foreign people who were trying to learn italian. That blow my mind ahah I know, it doesn't seem anything special but cmon when i say '' I would like to become an italian teacher abroad'' i feel so proud of myself!

Actually i'm still searching for the perfect Uni where to go. I got three options to reach my point

- Move to Germany > find a work > start talking a better german > get the lever C1 > get into Uni

- Move to Germany > find a Uni for foreing person > get into Uni

- Stay in Italy > get into Uni for foreign people in Perugia taking lessons to teach italian abroad for 3 years < forget German > move to Germany > get the level C1 > live there 

the last one is the easiest to study but the hardest to make it in germany, but i could make it anywhere else maybe...who knows. In any case, for now this is my plan. Last weekend i've been with my mum who went there for work in a lovely town in Germany called Wertheim. First of all let me tell you... i made amazing pictures. I had the opportunity to go around the village alone for the whole day, just me and my camera. And it was...fantastic! Perfect! But the main reason i went there was that i could use that short trip to collect as many information as i could for the Uni. I got something more than what i used to know before ofc and other information i will get in emails. 

Was nice to share with you this project of mine. I do know is not the easiest things to do and that i'm still young and bla bla bla but hey, LIFE IS A GAME WE PLAY and my parents support me in this so i'm really determinated at the moment.

What do you want to do with your life guys? let me know in the comment below! And if you have any advices for me...go on than! :)

I really like this picture i took in  a Café in Amsterdam last Summer after the Gay Pride Canal Parade. I've always liked it, it gives me the idea i have of Vintage, don't know why, maybe just because of the vinyl. Just wanted to share it :)
 you can find it on my Flickr page  http://www.flickr.com/photos/federicaz/

What to do with this blog .

Heyhey !

 Today i reached 105 visualisations (yeeee) of this internet page...and this is pretty awkward for me because i never really thought somone could spent time reading what i write, since the fact i suck pretty much at school when it comes to write a newspaper article, an assignment or anything else. 

Althought no one is an 'official reader' (or how is it called) i think i understood that people do like to hear my opinion about different topics.

 So yesterday, since the fact i'm not feeling well (sore throat, headache and cold! yay! all together as a big lovely family of germs!! -.- ) I decided i was going to do a brainstorming about random things s i could talk about and it came out that i also could share with you something a bit more girly (like outfits, months favourite). I thought about them because these are not long blog post to make, i don't really think i could be able to write much about clothes and make up tbh ahah so maybe these could be posts i write when i'm busy, just not to leave my blog completely unapdated. Maybe some of you could also appreciate that...who knows. Anyway, my realtion with shoppingm, if i have to be honest,  is not that easy...but i'm not going to spoil anything, because i'd like to write about this.

Guess i should read this post all over again because i feel like i abused of the word 'blogpost' ahah 

Soon i would like to post a picture of myself, so you could see who's writing over here :D but i'm not looking the best at the moment so it's better for you not to see this big red nose of mine that makes me look like Rudolph !

I'm over with news..this was a short and fast update. 

ZBOGOM!! (Goodbye in Croatian) 

and also if i'm late HAPPY HALLOWEEN :)

Picture i made in my bedroom in Holland

I need another me...but more stable .

All these flowers in the background, this soft music...this all represent what I am half of the time. The other half I'm not that stable with my nerves. It takes just a little thing to drive me crazy (in a bad way). The most recent thing is the fact that on Saturday I have to take pictures during an 18bday party, I'll be payed so it should be great. Well I was actually screaming so loud because a pair of shoes I wanted to wear I took them to repair this afternoon, without thinking about the weekend. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a shopping girl (I sometimes am but not at high level) and is not the fact that I don't have my shoes, it's about the fact I forget  I needed them, I didn't plan everything as I thought. And this just made my unstable. I'm one of those persons that make lists, but my problem is that, although I have an agenda I can't live without, I make thousands lists, I try to plan everything...and when it comes I forget something, in my view of the situation, this is just unacceptable. My mum says I'm cruel with myself, I criticised everything about my body, my attitude etc. And I also do attack everything that's around me. 

I don't know why this happens but when it does I'm scared; I don't know where all this hate come from. Maybe the fact I recently broke up after a long distance relationship of 2 years? (I'll write about it I guess..not quite ready right now) I believe I just need to know that someone is always here for me. Maybe I need that person I recently closed with, or someone that is closer, maybe people I don't know or also friends that always say "I'm here for you, whenever you want"...but they're not actually. They do not invite me over for first, never, I'm always the second choice or the one that "if you want to come yeah sure", is not like they're really inviting me. Basically I feel selfish thinking about this now but the point is that, although I think and I realise that these things are as I see them, or maybe they're not..at the end they are not changing. 

I would like to have another me; someone who knows how I feel and that could give me the right council, who's always ready. 

I just really hope this shit period will be over soon. Maybe I could try talking with someone, like the school-psychologist...but I'm not quite sure; you come in my small town, and we don't have to pay you...doesn't seem logic in my opinion.

I think this blog is helping. To express my problem and explain them to you, ghosts readers, I need to analyse them. And that's what I'm supposed to do when I overreact.

I should always write this to you but, at the same time, remembering it to myself. 

LIFE IS A GAME WE PLAY!

( Picture from the internet )

     

Angry me .

Lots of people deal with panic attack, hunger attack (I got that too ahah), claustrophobic attack. Well my problem are the "anger attack". It's not like I went to the doctor and he told me I often deal with anger because of this this and this reason. I figure it out myself after thinking about the way I've been acting lately. I'm not enjoying my life at all. I'm always constantly anxious for everything but most of all I've been getting angrier and angrier in every situation. I know in this way it doesn't really sound easy to understand but with a couple of examples it shock è easier to understand. When I failed at things I don't get depressed, I become really angry with myself and with any one else. 

Recent example; I failed my driving license theory test. These testes are mainly based on lucky, and as I often say "I have bad luck since when I came to the world". On the 17th February 1995 my mum led me out and that 17th was a Friday! (Bad luck day in Italy). In any case, I was angry when I failed the test, I was angrier when I discovered that just for one mistake in excess I was over, I was even more angry when it came out that when I will have to remake the test there will be new testes with 800 new quizzes. When I opened my Facebook page that day, I saw at least 6 pictures of people I know showing their drive license, that they got in the morning, while I was busy failing mine. In that moment I just couldn't take it and I exploded. 

Today happened that I lost my glasses. This made me angry for the whole day and that's why it also inspired me to take my PC and star writing  here for you, my ghosts reader. When I realized is lost them at home I started searching them and this made me late for school, where I had to sign some papers that say you're late and you can be late for other 3 time until Xmas and stuff like that. When I came back home (I was feeling pretty happy for the 7.5 I got in German) I started searching them again, and I could find them. The contacts I used in the morning were giving me headache so I decided to take them off. As resul I'm angry, with a bit of headache, in my garden, listening to relax music that is not particularly helping me...considering the fact that I busted into tears several times. 

Does anyone have the same problem? How do you deal with your anger attack?

Picture i took in Amsterdam during the Gay Pride Parade 2012 ( on Flickr http://www.flickr.com/photos/federicaz/ )

Hey hey !

I can't believe i finally started writing! I honestly thought i was never going to do this.

Let's start with a presentation (not too full, not a small introductions ;) ).

My name is Federica and as you can tell from it i'm italian. I live in the center of my country, so i'm not any close to big cities (Rome is the closest 2h30 with car) and in my region we don't have sea! yay!

I'm 18 and on the 12nd of September i started my fifth and last year of high school. You may think i had to repeat the year, well no i've never had it's just that school in italy is one year longer! If you're shocked for this well wait to hear this; I don't have a proper weekend because we have always had school on saturday!

My high school focuses on the study of languages and that's why at the end of my 5 years i'm supposed to be talking in a good way english, french, german and italian ofc. I tried myself to leanr dutch and spanish but..yeah i was not that constant with the study, but i think that, at least for spanish, i could have make it.

For this interest i have in language i'm also a travels lover! I like travelling more than anything else and i think that to leave in Europe is the best thing that ever happened to me because i can fly everywhere and see a thousand things without even being on the other side of the globe. I've also been there..in Australia i mean. Last summer i went there and it was amazing. The things that i like the most about travelling, except for the new places to see and the new faces of people, are the pictures i take. Yes, i like photography, I got a Canon1000D (3 years old..i love that baby!) and every picture i take is a memory and i can't delete any of them (and that's why i finally bought an external memory ahah).  In my future i see myself teaching italian abroad, probably in Germany, and i'll work hard to do this !!

I'm a really talkative person and i think that it may be cool and usefull to write here what happens in my life and what i think about several topics; i said usefull because i think this is just the most perfect way that i have to wreake out all the thoughts i have in my mind .

And today, 11st October, that's where i start my journey! I'm apoligizing in advance for all the grammar mistakes and all the repetition i'll do but remember...i'm just SUPPOSED to be good at english at the end of school ahah kidding, i also want to improve so please, correct me :)

Remember; Life is a game we play! 

                                             My Flickr;  http://www.flickr.com/photos/federicaz/