How to be grounded .

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What's a blog for? Why did I start this page? Because I wanted a ''place'' where to write down my thoughts. No one of you readers knows me, and if you do...you won't come up in the street saying ''hey! I got an advice for you to solve out your problems'', so i'm okay with writing about myself in a random way. Let's do this!

Tonight something happened; my parents discovered that I've been skipping school on purpose (without them knowing about this) some times during the school year. I'm grounded for the first time in my life. My parents are one of those couples that always agree on everything, and that's really annoying. Basically, I don't know for what reason, maybe just because Karma does exist and it's against me, they decided to check out the electronic register for the first time this year. And guess what? they found out about my 'unauthorized days out school. So here I am, waiting for my finals to start on the 18th of June, and until that day my only friends will be my books; I'll have to spend Saturday nights at home, no car available for me (yes, I did take my drive license recently and no, I won't be able to live the amazing experience of driving alone any time soon) and the work I got as photographer, for the final exhibition of the gymnastic association I used to train with, it's basically gone, because I'm grounded also for those days. 

I'm hoping for the best at the moment, maybe the fact I'll be forced to study will have some results and I'll be able to finish high school in a good way, with a good marks on the final exam. But I think that after this tremendous year, it's a really rare possibility. 

Another thing I wanted to shortly write about are the movies I saw recently. In my list we have ''The Help'', ''Adam'', ''Finding Neverland'' and ''Rain Man''. If you haven't seen them, go download them, they're amazing. I really enjoyed watching them. 

Tomorrow I'll have the play I've been working on with the rest of the group in my acting class at school. We're gonna put on stage ''Così è, se vi pare'' by Pirandello (Italian writer/play writer...that I adore!). Hopefully it will come out in a really nice way. We tried all together with our dresses for the play and let me tell you that this afternoon we were so incredibly perfect! Cross your fingers for me please !

That's it for this week. As I said, it was really random. I'd like to restart making nice nice blog post with pictures etc. but I'm not in the mode and I don't have time. Most of all, I need a place where to write so, here it's FedeRS for me.

 Have a nice week/weekend :)

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Spring crisis .

Let's be honest. At the moment I'm going trough a bad period. 

I eat everything, at every moment of my day and than I complain about the fact I'm gaining weight, I gave up on my diet. 

I can't study. I sit, read and than start wondering about several things. I think a lot, I force myself to stay focused...but I just can't. 

I'm constantly waiting for a break, although I just had one for the school trip, one week ago. It already seems a month or two that I'm not temporary away from school. Easter holiday are next week, but I won't be able to stand this all week I still have to face. 

The worst part of this situation is that I know what's going on but I'm not reacting. I keep telling myself I need to study I won't make it to the final exams this year, I keep confessing people that I'm not a good student, not as good as I used to be...I'm just bad now. I feel ignorant, I feel frustrated from the fact that I'm the only one who fails at everything in my class. But still, I do not react. 

I thought it was because I'm way more attached to YouTube than what I used to be (I'm planning to open my YouTube channel this summer, I'm saving money to get a DSLR camera that can film as well), because I'm often busy with theater, because I'm focused in this blog...it's not like this. 

All I do is sitting in front of the desk, with or without headphones on, and start wandering why I'm doing nothing, what's wrong with me, what's the solution at this situation.

Give up and repeat the year? It seemed an option, that I didn't confess to anyone of course. But again, it's a sufferance to stay in this high school, I'm looking forward to go to Uni, I need to change life, I can't stand another year like this one. 

I don't feel the pressure of the exams coming, I don't care about what my teachers say when I take a bad mark. And I don't even feel like this blog post helped me out in any way, I would love to have a positive feedback from all you people that are part of the 675 visualizations I reached. 

I need your advises. When I started writing I didn't really think that someone could be interested in this "little internet space of mine" but than I saw the visualizations growing higher and higher after every blog post and now I'm expecting and hoping for a proper "talk" with you. 

I don't know what to do . This blog post is the way I have chosen to let off steam! Sorry if it's not the average one i write, I just didn't feel like an average calm post.