Real (better) life - Update #2

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I need to say in advance that this is supposed to be a quick update, but the truth is that to write it down I'm taking more time than what I expected.

After my Bloggiversary, I had tons and tons of ideas for new blog posts. None of them has been realized, not yet. Everything is inside my head, I planned every photo shoot it takes to make every blog post, I have new materials (clothes, gifts, shoes...) to show you and books to write about. 

The reason for which all these ideas are unrealized is not a lack of time or ideas but because I lately thought about myself a little bit more. Some aspects of my life are changing in negative, others in positive, others are as they were before. 

The real update is that I'm changing, I'm going through a phase in my life that I've been waiting for a long time. If I need to quickly say what changed I can write you a sort of list.

- I have a best friend. A new one, surprisingly is a guy, we get along and he understands me. 

- I didn't stop biting my nails as I wanted to, but I'm starting to lose weight again. It may be a long journey, it may end in few weeks...I already lost 6 kgs and I'm starting to feel good with my body, I'm happy for what I've achieved and I'm looking forward to arrive at the body-shape I've always wanted.

- I met new persons, I have fun with them, laugh a lot and I'm always looking forward to spend a night with them, even if it means to spend money playing billiards and darts at the Pub. 

- I have new friends at the Uni. Some of them, almost everybody, are older than me, but this is not a problem at all, I find myself talking with someone way older than me as if he/she was my age.

- I often drive and even if I'm alone in the car for 10 minutes, I really enjoy this time by myself, I think a lot and listen to good music, of every king.

- I have a special friendship with my cousin that, for me, has become a sister.

- Yesterday, with my scout group, we went in Tuscany and picked some chestnuts. We than ate them in front of the fireplace. Really nice day out.

- I got a new haircut. Nothing special but still, something new that makes me happy.

- I like to workout

- I'm using less make up

- I finished to read '' And the mountains echoed'' by Khaled Hosseini and I found it amazingly beautiful.

- I finished ''Breaking Bad'' and just started ''Game of Thrones''

- I went to the Eurochocolate with my friends, here's a picture of us

Sofia - Giulio - Chiara - Me - AnnaMarta

These are small and big events that made my life a little better this month, hopefully everything will stay as it is now, or will improve in November. 

I didn't mentioned certain aspects of my life that, at the moment, are not in their ''rose period'', but I really do hope that I'll solve them out soon.

On the 10th of November I'll have my first exam, and for this reason, until that day I may not be able to post anything. Being so cold outside, I think I'll have more time to stay in my home and write something down. 

In the meantime, I wish you all an amazing week, enjoy autumn !

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Long distance relationship .

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I recently found out about a  TV show on MTV that tells stories of people that, at a certain point of their relationship, have to be divided because one of them has to leave. So they spend the last weeks together and than the one that has to leave for some months goes away in a black car. At that point, we know if they kept the relationship alive, despite the distance, or if they decided to give up. I'm sorry if you don't understand what show this is, it's just that I watch it on TV here in Italy and we have the bad habit to change every movie/show's title, translating it as awkwardly as possible; so I don't know what the real name of the show is. 

This program, in some way, reminded me that I wrote about the fact that I had a distance relationship but that I've never really wrote about it in a proper way. I'm not going to talk about my private life, I'm just going to tell you how did it feel for me to be in this kind of relation and, maybe, I will help some of you, who knows?

Basically, first thing to say is that this relationship was the most important and the longest one I've ever had in my life. I didn't have many relationship, to be honest, but this one could have been the best over thousand relationships. This guy and I were together for two years and our story ended on September 2013. 

We met thanks to school ! On the 2nd year of high school (2011) my class had this exchange with a dutch school. Yes, we're the same age but he's Dutch and I'm Italian and the only way we had to communicate was talking in English. I have to admit that right now I feel pretty confident writing in a language that is not my official one, but at the time...I couldn't tell the difference between ''why'' and ''because'' ! Ok no, this is too much...I couldn't understand everything and when it came to talking I was always really nervous because my vocabulary was really poor. Despite this massive barrier we managed to start talking, getting to know each other and after the exchange I decided to go back in The Netherlands with other three friends of mine during summer holiday. We had ten lovely days there, and this guy and I decided that we wanted to try to have a proper relationship, although 1169.36 kms that were going to divide us for the biggest part of the time. 

We kept having our relationship only seeing each other during Christmas, Easter and summer holidays. Even if it was for four days, those four days were going to make the difference, after 4 months away from each other. 

Although it is now over, I need to admit that this was one of the most important experience of my life. I made huge efforts to keep this relationship working, I trusted him, although I couldn't always check if he was loyal etc. ,and I keep believing that my trust was properly given. We both grow with each other's realities that were different. In his country they always use bikes, they eat lots of foreign dishes, their cities are clean and the houses are small but tall. When he came in my city he was surprised that I didn't need car or bikes to meet my friends, but that I just needed a couple of minute walking to see them in the square, he was happy he could eat all that pasta and he liked the fact that my house was not that tall but pretty large. 

I'm still in love with The Netherlands and I'm seriously thinking about planning my future there, as an Italian teacher (if I'll ever be able to find that job in that country). 

What I'm trying to say in this blog post is that nothing should scares you, every barrier can be destroyed if you strongly believe in what you're doing. Today I read this on twitter:

''If something is meant to be, than it will find his way''

In my situation, it was meant to be although age, distance, language and other obstacles. 

And I'm glad that I, at least, tried to make it work in a beautiful way until when it was possible.

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The ''Have you ever'' test .

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Back when everyone used MSN to chat, instead of WhatsApp and Facebook, I used to have another blog. It was completely different from this one. Starting from the theme, I did it in green with apples everywhere, one in light blue and bottles of milk (??)...it sounds strange but they were really cute actually, than I wrote in Italian there, I often copied lyrics from different songs, I posted awkward pictures of mine (you know, those pictures you could find in Netlog as well...so embarrassing) and I also used to post different testes I did. On my external memory I found some of those testes, as the ''have you ever'' one. So, since the fact I promised you to post some outfits for spring using the clothes i bought when I was abroad and on the Internet BUT I haven't shoot the pictures yet, I thought that with this test you could get to know me a bit better (if you want). 

 Let's get started ! (I had to cut some questions out because there were too many!) 

 ✔ not slept during the whole night? I partied until 7am this summer when I was in Germany, awesome!

✘  run away from a big angry dog

✔ grown a cactus?

✔ grown any plant from a seed? With my scout group we're working on a vegetable garden at the                  moment

✔  been under a waterfall? both natural and unnatural 

✘  sit and stare someone (and they stared back) for more than 1 min( not in a staring game)?

     that would be awkward I guess...

✘  been out during a snow storm? 

✔ lost someone you love?

✔ met and befriended someone born on the same day as you?

✘  been out in the pouring rain for more than 30 min and enjoyed it? Didn't enjoy it...sorry!

✔ won a staring-at-eachother-but-not-laughing-game? I proudly did recently !

✘  petted a tiger? I have lots of turtles...do they count?

✔ seriously fallen in love with a fictional character?

    Ronald Weasley, you'll always have a special  place in my heart 

✘  been completely alone for at least 2 days? I can't do that, I'm too talkative !

✔ been drunk? Many adventures 

✘  broken someones window and run away? It was a vase, and it was in a monastery 

✘  insulted a teacher? I'm not a ''model'' student but I believe in respecting the different roles

✘  bungee-jumped? I'm not planning to tbh, I find it really scary !

✘  roller-skated all day? I tried to learn how to roller-skate...I failed -.-

✔ fallen in love?

✔ talked on the phone for more than 2 hours in a row?

    Back then I didn't even have a contract with free calls in it...I spent 10 euros of credit in 2 hours !

✔ gotten lost in a forest?

    It was one year ago and my friend and I had to reach the top of the mountain to find the way back !✔ slept in a tent? 

✘  helt a butterfly in your hands? I can't remember tbh 

✔ fallen asleep to your favorite music? 

✘  killed something other than a insect or spider?

✔ forgotten something VERY IMPORTANT?

    My mum's birthday and some others...I'm a good daughter/friend !

✔ listened to the same favorite song over and over again more than 10 times? It's routine !

✘  texted/sms-ed someone half of the night? I like to sleep, that's it 

✘  sung karaoke? 

     It has to be a no, because I can sing just when I have headphones on, so I can't hear my own voice

✘  eaten a whole giant cake by yourself ?

     I'm planning to with my brother...stay tune to discover how it will end

✔ spent the whole day reading?

✔ kissed a photo of someone other than your family or a celebrity?

    Social networks make this incredibly easy!

✔ enjoyed thunder, rain and lightning? 

    With a good cup of tea, the fireplace on and a blanket in a cold winter day...who doesn't 

✔ climbed a tree and not been able to climb down and forced to ask someone to take you down? 

     It happened also with some buildings and walls...they weren't even that high 

✔ started loving something you used to hate? 

✔ won a dare?

✔ lost a dare? and since the fact I can't lose...I didn't accept it. 

✘  eaten strawberries until you felt sick?

    They're quite expensive in my opinion and I've never really bought that much strawberries 

✔ cried 2 hours in a row?

✔ baked a cake? Although I'm really terrible when it come to cooking...I proudly did, It was eatable,            everyone digested it...and I need to admit that 

✘  banged your head against the wall on purpose?    ...

✔ tried to swim somewhere where the water is only up to your knees? 

✔ gotten a paper cut?

✔ fallen down the stairs?

✔ tried on a wedding dress? 

    It was my mum's one. She was so thin when she get married...the dress didn't fit me :(

✔ washed a huge pile of dishes by yourself? Let's take a moment to insult my brother 

✘  had a long conversation on the phone with a stranger? I bet it would be fun 

✘  gotten a big encyclopedia as a present from a relative?

And here these are my answer, try to redo this test in your blog, there are many others if you google for them! Hope you like this blog post and the new songs! Have a nice day :)
Hope you like the new songs :)

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The headphones' world .

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I'm writing this blog post really quickly, because I should go upstairs and study English for the literature test I'll have tomorrow and for philosophy oral test.
Lately the only one thing that I can do for hours and hours...is listening to music. On Christmas, as you probably read in this blog post, I got this big white pair of headphones, that i really wanted because I saw something like this on Cassie in Skins Pure: if you don't know who she is or what i'm talking about...you better start watching Skins, you don't know what you're losing! It's one of my favorite tv series ever!
In any case, the fact that I can isolate myself so often, helps me relax. I've been spending many afternoons and evenings alone at home, in some cases because i had to study, in others because i was tired. I always find myself that little spot in my daily life in which i can reflect on several things; why did i give dieting? should I save money for a better DSLR Camera that can make video as well? Should i restart working out? When am i going to finally take my drive license?...these are just some of the things that i need to figure out in my life, I don't want to write a whole page about them of course.

When I have my headphones on I can think about my problems and, at the same time, I can escape from them, some ways. Not quite sure why I need this so bad, I just know what to sit and think about these things it's basically one of those things i can't give up doing. 

The song you can listen to in the video at the beginning of the post is my favourite song at the moment, it's the only one that can give my mind that little push it needs to start ''sailing''

What do you do when it comes to your personal space for thinking ?

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An inspiring door .

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I know, it’s definitely been a while since when I last wrote here, but I have good reasons!I've been sick (and I still am); I have sore throat, cough, cold, headache…all the germs family was together, but temperature strangely didn't show up! I was also waiting for all my birthday presents + some orders I did on the internet (that were not here yet) so that I could make pictures and write blog posts about them. Although i didn't write here, i made those pictures :3

Since when I stayed home on Monday, I started watching movies and tv series nonstop. Now, the 5^th season of Gossip Girl I downloaded it’s over, I watched all the movies in my pc…so I decided to write down this blog post ! Finally ahah!

Several time, in other blog posts, I mentioned this bedroom’s door I have that I consider so special. I pasted there quotes, sentences and posters about things I like. There’s even a coke label with my name on it and a Sourcy Vitamin Water’s one in blackberry flavor. I love that drink, too bad we don’t have it in Italy. There’s just a bad IMITATION of it -.- .

It may or may not be interesting for you to read about this, I just wanted to show you this thing, It’s something creative I do and that I want to show you guys. Maybe one of my readers does the same thing, and I’d be glad to see some pictures of your creative spot in your bedrooms!

Here’s the picture of my door.

Basically what I do with those papers is to stick them behind the door. There I can see them every time I’m on my bed, when I’m studying at the desk and also when I sit on my pouf (I guess there’s no English translation for this one) to read and listen to music. To read them that often will probably make them part of my way of thinking, I hope.

Rereading them after a while makes me realize also what are the quotes that really should be important in my life and those that shouldn't. For example, the last time I wrote here, on this blog post, I was thinking about a quote from Janis Joplin’s song. I found myself disagreeing with that so I removed it.

Should I write a blog post about the quotes I remove or that I paste on my door? I think it may be interesting to think and write about them. If you comment below there may be also a confrontation, we could talk about it !  Have a nice week everyone, stay tuned for the next blog post, that hopefully will be in the weekend!

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